Prior to being diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) I ran lots of half marathons, I think about 7 but I always lose count! I never wanted to do a marathon, it seemed like a scary distance and a lot of training! However, there’s something about being diagnosed with a chronic illness, one which I often feel like I have no control over, that made me want to do something big and scary
Me and running were on a break. It’s hard to explain the amount of pain I was in and the frustration I felt when every medical professional put it down to any sport that I did.
Security guards on the apartment blocks must have thought I was crazy running around and around the block. But I did it and I didn’t stop. I ran my first half marathon in 2hrs 18 minutes. Then logged onto zoom for online teaching not quite believing what I had just done. I don’t think my husband, nor my own children quite believed me either. I thought maybe I could be a runner.
Standing on the start line I had butterflies. The race started well - probably setting off a little too quick but the pace felt good. The hardest part was between 5-8km but the crowd where amazing. Clapping and cheering every runner that went pass them. I spotted a few people that I knew which helped pushed me on.
When I got to 7k my legs were really heavy and my aim became not to walk. I caught up with several runners who seemed to be having the same problem. We progressed on to the finish line and past the mansion house. Some people started to sprint...
Then came the day I realised there was a problem. My resting heart rate had always been low (as had my blood pressure) but it started dropping lower and averaging at 32 bpm instead of 42 (which was my average for a few years). It was my watch that kept alerting me...
Over the years I've battled with my mental health it stemmed from being bullied at school then I went on to having five miscarriages I am extremely lucky to have both my children.
I still remember the day I started running. I’m a Divorced, Single Mummy to two girls, aged just five and eight. I also suffer with an Anxiety Disorder. The year I got divorced in 2017, I landed my dream career as a Police Constable. A couple of years on…and I found life overwhelming.
I am the first to admit that at school I was a bit of an oddity. I wasn't sure quite where I fitted - on the one hand I was all black nail varnish, tasseled skirts and bootleg Nirvana cassettes. On the other I had a secret crush on Mark Owen and knew all the words to Don't Love Me for Fun by Boyzone. Probably for that very reason I was never really one for team sports
I did something which at the time felt that it wouldn't happen, and that was put myself into a charity place ballot for the 2022 London Marathon, and lo and behold, I got a place!